Ephphatha

i think the reality is starting to sink in that we will be moving in less than three weeks. i continue to go to the liquour store to stack up on boxes and the boxes continue to be filled and take up room in our apartment. as more boxes are piled up the more and more my emotions start to run. often i am very excited at the grea opportunity that lies in front of us, but some times i truly dread the idea of leaving this safety net. the last few days have been very sweet as we have spent much time with friends- and logan has been able to hang with all of his little buddies. part of the emotional turmoil comes with the question of can i really do this work? i know i have been prepared well, and have what it takes, but still how do we prepare for it now? what does it take to be a good pastor? what does it take to be a mission developer?

i had a good visit the other day with president bliese and he gave me words to live by i think- he said- "you just have to do it- get your feet wet and dive in- you will learn real fast what you need to work on and then, then you can go back and learn it" i think he is right in many ways- i know there are certain things i can do well and obviously things that i can't- it will be helpful to start the actual learning process by actually doing the work.

many more friends continue to get calls and move out, and still others are waiting. man, it pisses me off to think about how wrong it is that some of my friends- who are very able pastors- are still being dicked around. whoa- that is just wrong.

babble babble babble- i must quit- just wanted to vent.