venting
i need to vent. this waiting for financing for our home sucks. and i realize i am in no position to complain- there are thousands of people who do not have a home and are suffering from the destruction of katrina. there are people all over the world dying every day because they do not have enough food to eat. i have both food and shelter, yet right now i find myself quite bitter. it could be because anna is going nuts in the house we are in now- a shelter, an old home- but one that stinks, is hot, and is not ours. i think her emotional rollercoaster is finally starting to wear on me. i feel terrible to complain, but god please help us. i am sad because anna is so sad, i am mad because anna is mad. i am mad too because had wells fargo told us that all i had to do was take my loans out of grace, we would be in our new home now. i am numb because i am not sure how i am to feel. i am frustrated because i can't seem to come up with a sermon for sunday relating to the workers in the vineyard- where we learn that the last shall be first. damn it.
okay, i will stop but i had to find a place to share some of my feelings- and this seemed as good a place as any. thanks for the ears.
dear lord- help keep things in perspective, remind us that you are god and we are not, that we need to serve you every day. continue o lord to lead us on paths that bring glory to the kingdom and not paths that seek to bring glory to ourselves. amen
okay, i will stop but i had to find a place to share some of my feelings- and this seemed as good a place as any. thanks for the ears.
dear lord- help keep things in perspective, remind us that you are god and we are not, that we need to serve you every day. continue o lord to lead us on paths that bring glory to the kingdom and not paths that seek to bring glory to ourselves. amen
praying for you. Paz.
Posted by
Chad K |
10:46 PM
prayers are with you honey.
Posted by
~moe~ |
8:24 AM
oh, justin, i'm SO sorry. it's so hard to know what to say and what to do when you can't make it better for the ones you love. and the "powers that be" whoever they are, are making it worse.
here's hoping you get a little release, a sense of reprieve. and that the bankers realize they're dealing with human beings and work extra hard for you.
about the workers in the vineyard. i'm not getting anywhere either, but i've been thinking mostly about the line where jesus says, "am i not allowed to do what i want with what is mine?" it changes the gift in question (wages or salvation) from compensation to identity. we aren't given compensation for what we've done. we do in response to the identity we've been given. not sure where that goes, but...
oh, and my colleague gary has some very good friends in the traverse city area. he asked if he could pass along your name to them to make a connection and provide some support for you. my sense is that they'd be pretty solid people to know. anyway...
Posted by
kendi |
3:52 PM
thanks for the prayers guys- it seems that they are working! things are looking up as of today, so time will tell. just the thought of it being done soon makes anna very happy!
k- first of all i am angry that you went to a cards game and i did not. second, tell your colleague to pass my name by all means- 231.632.0824
jg
Posted by
Justin G |
7:52 PM
j - my prayers are with you during this trying time. i understand what it is like to live in that house. i also used to work with mortgage companies and i can tell you they are not about people, no matter what their ads say. just know my prayers are with you.
if you send me the covenant form, my prayers could formally be with advent too....
Posted by
Leland |
9:05 PM
for that sermon thing...
what about life not being fair, but god, ultimately, isn't fair either because he loves each of us so much he gave his son for all - not just for those with mortgages...
or something like that
Posted by
Leland |
9:22 AM
how about...heaven forbid that GOd be fair. I'd be up s*@# creek. :) Paz
Posted by
Chad K |
3:12 PM