boxes
it really amazes me that my entire life is now almost completely packed up inside of boxes. of course the REAL important aspects of my life (spouse, child, dogs, cat, friends, etc) could never be put inside of boxes, but the rest of me is all ready to be shipped out sometime next week. every time i walk into my study (where most of my boxes are stacked neatly, i am reminded of the harsh reality that this leaving thing is really going to happen soon. i realize i have been lamenting, pondering, blabbing, about this subject a lot lately but i guess i can't help myself. it seems that it must be important- perhaps it is my way of saying goodbye to this place or something. everytime i do something i think "wow that was probably the last time i will do that here in a long time". i golfed today with erik and had a great time. we might be lucky enough to get out next week for one more go at it, but this could have been the last time in a while that we golf together. how sad am i? man all these emotions suck- and then on top of it my lovely wife is sick due to being pregnant. so i am sad at the fact that she is sick, that logan will be leaving the only friends he has known and that i don't get to golf with E any more! the golfing aside- it does suck to be kicked out of this community that we have established over the last few years.
ok- enough of my bitter spewing. god is so good- things are definitely starting to take shape for our move and my starting in the greater Traverse City area. i look forward to the so many new adventures that will happen there, in addition to the new communities that we will be able to be part of.
logan and i are traveling this weekend to see my parents and grandparents one more time and i am sure that will be another one of those emotional times. i find it odd that my family is having a much harder time with us moving than anna's- especially my mother. i attribute this mainly to the fact that anna's family is much more well-adjusted on many levels- where they are saying- go, adventure, have fun- mine says- no, you can't go, how can you leave us. anyway- just a side note that popped into my head.
wow this has turned into a cluster of battered thoughts- i apologize but i guess it is what i needed.
ok- enough of my bitter spewing. god is so good- things are definitely starting to take shape for our move and my starting in the greater Traverse City area. i look forward to the so many new adventures that will happen there, in addition to the new communities that we will be able to be part of.
logan and i are traveling this weekend to see my parents and grandparents one more time and i am sure that will be another one of those emotional times. i find it odd that my family is having a much harder time with us moving than anna's- especially my mother. i attribute this mainly to the fact that anna's family is much more well-adjusted on many levels- where they are saying- go, adventure, have fun- mine says- no, you can't go, how can you leave us. anyway- just a side note that popped into my head.
wow this has turned into a cluster of battered thoughts- i apologize but i guess it is what i needed.
i believe the sense of uneasiness and fear will continue to build as the big day of the move comes. at the same time the excitement builds and will eventually eclipse the fear and uneasiness.
the trip home should be a good one, maybe it will be the time when your mom will finally see that you are not doing this - and by this i mean moving on with your life as an adult - to her. this is your life that you are living. remember this time of transition with your family and how hard it is . . . one day you'll face this with logan.
Posted by
Leland |
11:03 AM
we need to go out sometime before you leave so we can both cry in our beers together. Pink PIE!
Posted by
~moe~ |
11:05 AM
I can remember the emotions that you are having - the sense of fear, yet the sense of excitement of what is to come. This is the step in life that we all must make. You will be great ~
One bonus is that you will be closer to Fort Wayne!
Posted by
Anonymous |
12:23 AM
C- i am so excited that we will be closer to you! i do look at what you went through as you left this place as well to new adventures as an example. i know your road has been tough, but know that you are making it. i miss you brother! let's talk soon eh?
Posted by
Justin G |
11:40 PM