stuck
e recently reflected a bit on the changing of seasons, and the newness that fall often represents in life and the world. if you have not read it, i suggest you do- very good stuff! i too have been thinking of life-changes, and the passing of old things and the coming of new things. lately i have found myself concentrating hard on the new-yet-to-be type of things. specifically this has been advent- and all that must be done to birth this new congregation. yet...life continues to happen, and old things continue to pass- often times without much notice on my part. however, yesterday life threw me a curve-ball that brought me back to the here and now.
my aunt called me yesterday to inform me that my grandmother (my mom's mom) had been taken to the hospital because she was confused, disoriented, etc on saturday morning. they suspected this was due to a slight stroke or something along those lines. after further testing and a cat-scan they found a tumor on her brain. one that her doctor suspects is pretty fast growing, and most likely terminal. today she travels from madison, sd to sioux falls, sd for further testing and to see a specialist. this is one of those times that being so far away in michigan really sucks- yet at the same time there is only so much one could do if i was present. i spoke with my brother who is in arizona and like he said, we all had one good time together at my ordination. the way it sounds, she is pretty out-of-sorts now already, and is not herself. still, there is a longing to be there and a reality that i am stuck here. the hardest part of this is thinking about my mom- i know this will impact her the hardest, and pray that god will hold her tight as she walks through this. to make things worse, my grandma's sisterdied from a brain tumor about 8 years ago.
even amidst this toubled time, i do rejoice as e pointed out that a new thing will happen to my grandmother during this time and in her death. to god be the glory forever and ever.
my aunt called me yesterday to inform me that my grandmother (my mom's mom) had been taken to the hospital because she was confused, disoriented, etc on saturday morning. they suspected this was due to a slight stroke or something along those lines. after further testing and a cat-scan they found a tumor on her brain. one that her doctor suspects is pretty fast growing, and most likely terminal. today she travels from madison, sd to sioux falls, sd for further testing and to see a specialist. this is one of those times that being so far away in michigan really sucks- yet at the same time there is only so much one could do if i was present. i spoke with my brother who is in arizona and like he said, we all had one good time together at my ordination. the way it sounds, she is pretty out-of-sorts now already, and is not herself. still, there is a longing to be there and a reality that i am stuck here. the hardest part of this is thinking about my mom- i know this will impact her the hardest, and pray that god will hold her tight as she walks through this. to make things worse, my grandma's sisterdied from a brain tumor about 8 years ago.
even amidst this toubled time, i do rejoice as e pointed out that a new thing will happen to my grandmother during this time and in her death. to god be the glory forever and ever.
j-my prayers are with you in your distance from touch but not from pain. and my prayers are with your mom who is probably feeling overwhelmed. i understand the challenges distance brings to care for one's family, i have been far away at the loss of my great-grandparents, and my grandmother. amidst the worry, the wringing of your hands wondering what you can do, and the heartache to comfort those physically closer and be comforted, i remind you that the healer is present with your grandmother, your mom, and your entire family - including you.
if you need to talk, call me...
Posted by
Leland |
7:12 PM
I will continue to pray for you and your family. Paz
Posted by
Chad K |
9:39 AM
praying for you always, continuing to hold you and your family close. god is with you now and always.
Posted by
~moe~ |
4:57 PM
those damn cardinals...
oh, and i'm praying for you and your family.
Posted by
kendi |
1:10 PM